I'm still working on my sewing project that I was going to blog about. Not because it takes a long time, but because I am lazy- and I'd rather lay around and eat jellybeans while watching Grey's Anatomy than sew.
But in the meantime, here's something I wanted to share. Something amazing...at least for me. And maybe it will encourage a few of you others as well. Or not. whatever :]
I've been asking myself for a few weeks now,
"Does every day have to be like this?" (meaning not good)
"Am I going to feel grumpy all the time?"
"How many years before I have time to brush my teeth?"
you know, stuff like that. I just feel like I can't keep up with life's demands, like I'm always being defeated by the things that must get done and should get done for me to be a good parent/wife/person. Life is CHAOTIC. And I beat myself up for laying around too much and being disconnected to the world and to my family.
One day it just hit me. A small voice said, "Pray about it." And after I poured my heart out, I knew exactly what needed to be done. I needed to prioritize and make a schedule.
Jonathan works four 10 hour days. I wrote down a schedule for those days, the other 3 being non-scheduled days so we can relax and be spontaneous and enjoy time together as a family. But for those four days, I decided to:
*wake up at 6 am- pray, study scriptures, exercise, shower, eat breakfast.
Because I have NO time to do any of these after the kids wake up.
AND THEN THREE SIMPLE THINGS:
*do something for my vanity.
Simple things- sugar scrub, mud mask, etc. Just one per day. Because feeling pretty is important. I know this now.
*do something productive.
I have different ones: organize something, socialize at playgroup - YES this needs to be scheduled- make a craft, make grocery list.
*spend ACTIVE time with kids.
Includes music/art day, active fitness day (toddler exercise, ha), pretend time day, and cleaning together day.
I know it seems silly to have to schedule these things...especially time with my children. But when I'm stressed or sad or upset, I truly lose all sense of what's important. And because of my OCD (not joking- I actually have it), things being written down is a huge help to me. example: when I go shopping for food and I want something not on my list, I'll write it down and cross it out before I put it in my cart.
So now each day I can feel like I did the best I could, even if I don't do everything. And I'm respecting myself and my body by taking care of myself so that I can better take care of our children.
I'm glad I prayed about this one...
because these little ones are worth it :]
and so am I.